Friday, October 5, 2012

four things friday

1. I was supposed to race this weekend.
My birthday is coming up, and last year's birthday race is still lingering, a bad taste in my mouth.  I picked out a new distance so I could not be stressed about the numbers and just have fun, but it isn't in the cards for me.  The amount of stress that I've been under and the level of anxiety I've been carrying around in my life has intensified so much over the past few weeks that I haven't even been able to train.  It's been interesting to see how stress has affected my motivation, my data, my heart rate, all of those things, but I hope I don't ever go through this experiment again.  Sonja recommended bagging the race a few days ago, and I whined and complained and then asked if I could switch to the sprint (yes) but when I woke up this morning, my heart was just not in it.  So I'm calling it now.  No race for me.

2. That said, some more big changes have happened in my life this week.  This time they were my choices, and I am confident in the decisions I have made.  Over the life of this blog, I've made it a particular habit to never discuss the specifics of my professional life (and there are folks that should be pretty happy about this habit), and I'm not going to start now.  I will say that it's become more and more important to me to be working in a place where I agree with the vision and the direction and the execution, and now I will be doing so.  I may not have quite figured out exactly what I want to be when I grow up, but the work that I will doing, the life I have put together from a small handful of pieces, each piece is a place where I will be able to grow, to be nurtured and flourish and, more importantly, be excited about the work that is being done.  A huge weight has been lifted, and the data junkie in me has spent the past two days watching my body heal.

3. Since I'm not racing, I can say in a public place without getting in trouble that I've got some fun activities lined up for this weekend.  I'm taking a trapeze class tonight, I'll spend some time on two wheels talking non-stop while laughing and snorting Gu up my nose and then cupcake tour round two will take place later in the weekend.  I hope to gain at least 12lbs and wake up on Monday morning in a dumpster, hungover, wearing my helmet, missing one shoe and with frosting in my hair.  Happy birthday, bitches. 

4. I asked/begged for a birthday set of 100x100, because while I've done 10K in my life, it's never been as hundreds.  However, going along with the "listening to my body" crazy lunatic way I've been making decisions lately, it's probably not in my best interest to do this after not being in the pool for a week.  So I am thinking about doing a November (Veteran's Day? Birthday +1?) version.  If you're interested in joining me, drop me a comment or an email and I'll put you on the massive list of people that I'm trying to drag into my crazy.  I'm tentatively thinking about the weekend of Nov 3-4 but am wide open to ideas that don't include the day of the Richmond Marathon, because I'll be in my sparkle cheer pants that day, hollering for some of my favorite ladies.

Happy Friday, puppy lovers and friends!

22 comments:

  1. Your alternative birthday plans sound like a good choice, enjoy!

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  2. Hooray for bike rides and cupcakes (lots of cupcakes...and frosting)! Have SO much fun at trapeze, you will love, love, love it!! If I wasn't deathly afraid of heights, I know I would've lived it too. Keep me in the loop on your belated birthday set, I've always wanted to do 100x100!!

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  3. Oooh Happy, happy, happy Birthday coming up!!

    Stress is bad, so I'm glad you're unstressing your life.

    You are awesome, my friend. Trail run, within the next 2 weeks, yes? I promise the most fun ever. Aside from cupcakes, dumpsters and all that, I mean.

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  4. Enjoy your birthday weekend!

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  5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY weekend! And the visual of how you want to end your weekend (dumpster, missing a shoe and frosting) is just priceless!

    The Kidless Kronicles

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  6. I can wholeheartedly agree with the career stress + anxiety affecting training. The same thing happened to me for most of August and September (I scrapped a 70.3 because of it); it's still lingering, but the possibility an exciting opportunity has helped pull me through the past couple weeks. Happy to hear about the big, positive changes!

    Have the most kick a$$ birthday weekend! If I didn't live in Minnesota I'd join in the 100x100

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  7. Have a freaking fantastic frosting-induced birthday coma! :)

    RE: the job, I had to hang onto a job I hated due to money issues a while ago. It killed me a little each day. But, I hung on long enough everything changed and it became a job I loved. I think we end up where we need to be. Good on ya for having the courage to seek where you need to be out.

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  8. First, happy birthday yo. Second, 100X100s. It reminds me when I had to do 10X1000s once...gross but good luck! You are awesome!

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  9. Happy birthday! Good for you for saying "no" to racing and "yes" to less stress.

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  10. #1 Good call. Listening to your heart is always a good plan.
    #3 What time do I show up?
    #4 I don't even know what this means. Except I sorta do and it's scary. 100 is a lot of anything! But yes, at least include me in on the explanation, ha!

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  11. Me! I'll join you for 100x100s. I've swum a total of 6,000 yds this month, so....

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  12. 100x100 how the eff does that even work? Do you just swim all freakin day? I'mma need some splaination. (That's totally a word.)

    I'm glad you got the work stuff under control. You should enjoy your bday with all the cupcakes and drunkey drunkness you deserve. Muah!

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  13. It's pretty insane how much of an impact stress can have on your body. I had a friend break out in a rash, have a mysterious lump in her neck and get a huge spike in blood pressure all within months from stress. I am glad you made the choice that is right for you & I know your training/racing will benefit as well as your life outside of racing.

    And Happy Birthday!

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  14. I would love to join in for some 100s, as long as they are after November 10. Somehow I am guessing that 10k in the pool (with a base of about 3k a week) is not an approved marathon taper activity.

    Enjoy your trapezing, resting and cupcake eating weekend!

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  15. Ha! Birthday weekend sounds like it's going to be fun. ;)

    Glad you've figured out the job/stress situation... I agree. life is too short to feel like that all the time- and the toll stress takes on our bodies is very REAL. I've seen athletes get injured over and over when they don't alter their training/racing plans when life stress picks up...

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  16. Happy Friday lady! Love the outlook. My bday is coming up too and I sort of relate to everything you just wrote!

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  17. I love your birthday plans. I'm going to a beer festival in Durham tomorrow night with friends, so I may also end up in a dumpster with one shoe missing and frosting in my hair. But in Durham, I could also be riddled with bullet holes. Fun times!

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  18. Congratulations! I believe that it's important (but oh so hard in practice) to make your work fit who you are, so rock on with that!

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  19. it would take me the entire month of november... and december, january and most likely february to do that crazy 100 thing you speak of. and id rather do it on a track. xo

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  20. 100x100....hmmm........you're crazy, my arms would fall off! But ill think about it! Re:the job - I hear you loud and clear. We're trying to start our own business since Adam was laid off in June. I'm working full time at a job I've hated for years (but pays too well to leave). Now I'm freaking out about how the heck ill handle quitting when we're ready for me to go full time t our food biz...pardon the typos I'm on my iPad!

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  21. I have been following you for a while and just wanted you to know this one really cracked me up. I also have made it a policy to not discuss my professional life, and that is a good thing on many levels. Great write up for your birthday, and I hope you had a good one! Good Luck!

    Keebler

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  22. It is a great way to celebrate your birthday with a race and the after party is always amazing.

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