Friday, June 22, 2012

little droplets

Dudes, I'm here.  
I didn't feel like I was suffering from taper craziness in the earlier part of this week.  Looking back now, of course, I can see that was a bunch of crap, I was an emotional disaster.  We had a very long day of traveling yesterday, but for some reason, when I stepped off the (third) plane and out into the sunlight in Spokane, some most all of my crankiness just melted away.


I'm so happy to be here.
Last summer, for whatever reason, I felt a pull towards this race.  I talked about it when I signed up - I couldn't figure out why, but no other 140.6 interested me like this one did.  I thought about waiting another year or even a few months and signing up for a late 2012 race, but I just couldn't stop thinking about Coeur d'Alene.  I still have no idea why I feel this way, but here I am.  


I'm so happy to be here.
Not just physically here, but happy with the choices I've made to end up with my brain in this place.  I remember so clearly laying on my couch last July, clicking the final "submit" on the race registration and feeling a lot of things, but mostly scared and excited.  And then the excitement settled down into busy list-making and details, and then once all the details were worked out I settled down into the work.  But the lists are checked off, the details are completed, and the work is done.  There is no more talk of shoes and nutrition and pace and MAF and helmets.  


I'm so happy to be here.
And I'm enjoying myself.  Last night I spent some quiet time in my running shoes getting my feet back under me, and then I went out to dinner and spent time laughing and being around good people.  I built my bike in about ten minutes without wanting to fling it out the window even one time, and this morning I'm out splashing in the lake and laying rubber down on the road.  Friendly workouts with just enough pep to remind me of what's coming.  
I've had some nice little droplets of love from the universe.  Yesterday on the plane, we sat next to a woman who told us that she was coming to Idaho to see her 81-year-old daughter - Sister Madonna - race.  I have no idea how young you can be to have an 81-year-old daughter, but after some time on google last night, I can say that it was definitely her.  We rolled up to athlete check-in late in the day and when we stopped to ask directions, a security guard was kind enough to pick up some cones so we could princess park right outside the expo (I told him I'd mention him on the blog, I'm sure he was only playing it cool when he looked at me like he had no idea what I was talking about and ran right home to flip on the local news to watch for it).  Everything is just good.  Little droplets of good love.
I don't even feel excited or nervous yet, although I'm sure those feelings will roll in.  I haven't spent a lot of time thinking about how the race is going to play out.  I don't need to memorize a complicated race plan - I've done it enough in training that it's mostly second nature at this point.  There is nothing left to analyze, there is no data that matters.  What matters is what is in my head, my legs, my heart.

I would say that you can track me on Sunday, you can type in my last name or my bib number (282) into the ironmanlive website (good luck with that), but time matters so little to me that I'm not sure what you should look for, other than the fact that I make it over the line at some point.  The poet will be blowing up twitter and maybe Facebook with updates and pictures throughout the day, so that might be more fun if you really want to stalk (you know you do).  I'm new enough and ignorant enough about how IM training works to not really have any idea what I'm going to do as far as the clock is concerned, and I never thought that I could truly be okay with that, but I am.  I'm glad that I can't do the complicated translation of training sessions into race expectations.  I'm glad that while I have a race plan, I'm not married to numbers on a watch.  I have a lot of friends here racing, some for the first time, some for the.....dozenth? time, and I'm looking forward to seeing each and every one of them out there.  Most will probably cross the line before me, and I will high-five every one on the way.  There was time in training to be serious, to buckle down, to hurt hard, and every drop of sweat, of blood that went into those months - I am reaping now.  Because I know that I've done the work, I have respected the distance, and I intend to smile through every mile.  To blow up this corner of Idaho with explosive joy.  
I'm so happy to be here.

49 comments:

  1. Just two words: Victory lap. This is yours. Keep on infusing it with joy and gratitude, and the race will be a success. So excited for you!

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  2. So you are happy???? ;)

    Loving all the smiles!!!

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  3. This post just makes me want to jump up and down screaming my head off! Good luck, have fun, soak it all in, and may this be an experience that stays with you forever, in the best way possible.

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  4. It sounds like your head is in a great place! Good luck and have fun out there - you've earned it!

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  5. So freakin' excited for you! I was thinking about you this AM on my lovely run to work and how much fun my first IM was without pace expectations, goals, etc. Soak it all in, you only do your first one once :)

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  6. What a gorgeous place for a race! I just now looked up where you are on a map. What a huge lake!!
    This whole post made me smile. I'm glad you are having a good time. That's so cool about the Iron Nun! She sounds amazing.
    I'll be stalking you on twitter for sure!

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  7. Enjoy all that CDA has to offer! Have a great weekend!!

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  8. Looks beautiful! Have fun out there and lots of luck!!

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  9. SO happy and excited for you. Congrats in advance and good luck :)

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  10. Congratulations! It's been amazing to read your perspective of focus on the experience, feelings, trust, and faith over numbers, splits, time. Enjoy every moment - you certainly deserve it!

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  11. The happiness shows! Live it up, girl. You earned every minute of this!

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  12. The smiles are radiating. You are going to have a great time. It is a surreal experience so take it all in. You will be great. You've come along way. Now it is time.....your time!

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  13. So excited for you! Good luck on Sunday :)

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  14. This post gave me chills and made me smile. I'm so excited for you!

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  15. So cool. Have a great race, take in the scenery. Especially in that lake. Damn.

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  16. fuck yes. This is the exact mood I was in before my race. May your smile stay on your face for all 140.6 miles and may the only tears you cry be tears of "holy shit, Im doing an Ironman". Im so proud of you.

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  17. Gah! SO happy and excited for you!! Soak in every single moment! CdA will always have a special place in your heart! PS - did you buy both kits? Can't wait to track you on Sunday!!!

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  18. BOOM! Soak it all in... It's only your first once!

    (I say this like I have any fucking clue what it's like to do an IM...)

    Have a great day at the office on Sunday. I'm sending positive vibes your way all weekend!

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  19. Amy nailed it, enjoy your victory lap girl!!!!!!!

    Just like with a first marathon (only with {a lot of} swimming and biking in front of it) this is your free pass to just enjoy the experience, soak up the moments and not stress about anything but finishing. Time goals are for the next one, this one is all for you. Get out there and come back an Iron(wo)man girl!

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  20. If I could "Like" this post 100x, I would! Keep that happy - we're feeling it for you, too.

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  21. Good luck! I can't wait to read al about it!

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  22. What an awesome and inspiring read! Have a great time!

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  23. Good luck and have a great day!

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  24. I'm freaking the freak out for you! So excited and pumped to follow you on race day! Be strong, Katie! I know you've got this!

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  25. I've said it before, and I'll say it agai- Crap. Heidi beat me to it. Oh well.

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  26. CDA will treat you well. Race hard, race smart.

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  27. You are going to have a great race with that wonderful attitude (and all your killer training). Can't wait to stalk you. HURRAH KATIE!!!!!!!

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  28. So much joy here. Go run (and bike and swim) toward it.

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  29. Have a great race Katie!!! This is going to be such an awesome day for you! Victory lap like someone else said is so true! And, I always like to pass on what I was told before my first ironman is to not only savor the finish line, but savor every single moment of the day! It is all incredibly so special. Enjoy!

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  30. I am so absolutely excited and happy for you. The race is definitely the reward for all the hard work you've put into training.

    Have a wonderful day out there and enjoy every moment of it! You've earned it. :)

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  31. congratulations Katie! I am so excited for you and I hope that not just race day-but the rest of your trip- is filled with joy and laughs and reminders that you have already accomplished something HUGE! Have a great time! Can't wait to read all about it!

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  32. I'm super bouncy excited for your weekend and all its going to bring you!

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  33. Speaking of little droplets, I teared up reading this! I am so happy for you and know you will rock it!!

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  34. That's the spirit!! So excited for you, I wish I were there. You'll OWN this, those smiles are a huge bonus.

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  35. So so so happy for you. Soak up every.moment. You're going to rock this thing.

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  36. Oh mah guah! It's finally here. And you are SO ready for this! IMCdA will never be the same after Katie races that course, that's for sure. You've got this girl. You're gonna tear it up.

    I'm proud of you.

    Now, kick some ass!

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  37. Have a great race Katie girl! SO excited for you!!

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  38. Go, Katie, go! Have an amazing race.

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  39. Remember to enjoy every minute of it! (and ROCK IT of course!!) :)

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  40. Tracking you now and YOU ARE ON FIRE!!! GO KATIE!

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