run this amazing day

At the beginning of this year, I didn't know what I wanted out of racing, but I knew I wanted it to be different.  I was weary of feeling so serious and anxious all the time, judging my own performance day in and day out.  So I started 2013 looking for change. In January I hopped in the water for a swim meet and then did a ten mile race as a MAF test later in the month with friends.  The lesson in January is that your fitness actually doesn't stick around if you take two months off to eat and drink and be stressed out and get pneumonia and pack up all your shit and move 2000 miles away.  Noted. In February, I went to Austin with friends to race a half marathon .  I PRd by a handful of minutes, but I learned that if I go into the day with a plan and a quiet mind, I will race well and feel satisfied at the finish line. I ran a 5K a few weeks later that was hilariously short , but again brought the quiet mathematical mind to the run.   April brought a new twist, a ha

I've done this post every year, and I'm sure that I enjoy putting it together more than anyone enjoys reading it.   January We start our lives in Colorado. February The long stream of visitors happily begins. March Yasi comes to visit and we spend all weekend on the trainer thanks to a huge dump of snow. April I fall back in love with skiing after being away from it for a decade. May I spend an amazing weekend in California with Anabel, riding my ass off and eating everything I can. June More wonderful visitors. July We move into our new house. August Ironman recovery with a visit and a lot of beer. September Gait analysis and back to training. October We visit Chicago so the poet can run a marathon. November I get to run with my girls. December We travel to Mexico and I kick off my off-season with a bang (or a crunch). Putting this together is always so much fun because of the

Never give up, for that is just the place and time the tide will turn. - Harriet Stowe I read this quote on another blog a few days before the race.  It's a favorite of mine right now, for obvious reasons.   When I got hit, on the bike, all my initial thoughts were negative.   You're such an idiot, who gets in a crash when you aren't even riding, you hate drama and now there's going to be drama.  Maybe I just won't even tell anyone that I crashed, maybe I'll just call it an off day and never talk about what happened, maybe I can get through the run without anyone knowing or noticing.   That's how I felt, what was going on mentally, for the rest of the bike.  I felt like an idiot.  I wanted a calm, no-drama day, and now no matter what happened, there was no chance of that race coming true. I started to run.  The up-and-down motion of running was jarring my upper arm flab, and that was pretty darn painful.  Every step felt like my arm was being slammed

I rode out of transition and realized that my Garmin was off.  When it loaded up, I caught a glimpse of the time of day and it was 7:54.  That made me laugh, I figured my swim time had been somewhere around 50 minutes, what a great way to start the day. Because of the fast swim, athletes were far less spread out getting onto the bike than they usually are, and getting out onto the course wasn't even a "draft fest" as much as there was nowhere to go, no matter how slowly you rode or sat back.  I made sure not to get swept up onto any wheels blatantly, but the first two miles were very crowded.  A large pack swallowed me up at one point, and I immediately sat up to make sure I wasn't on a wheel.  An official was nearby, and as soon as I sat up, he pointed at me and said something long in Spanish that I didn't understand.  I said what?  and he pulled out his iPhone, took a picture of my helmet and told me YOU STOP  and then rode away.  He didn't show me a red