Friday, April 8, 2011

this was only a test

I was waiting to write this post until after my test run of 1 mile this morning.  I was really hoping it would be a triumphant post, hooray, I ran a mile, I'm coming back!  Well, that's just not how my life works, I should know that by now.  It was awful.  It was incredibly painful and every step hurt and it took me 10 minutes and the only reason I kept going was because I was hoping it would improve but instead it just kept getting worse.  And I've been really calm and fine about not being able to run but now I am incredibly pissed off about how fucking unfair this situation is.  I did not overtrain.  I did not run through pain or come back too quickly.  I did not ignore my core or my strength training or my cross training.  I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG AND YET SOMEHOW I'M FUCKING INJURED AGAIN.  


Yes, I said fuck, I've actually said it 3 times now, sometimes life isn't all pink and clean so go ahead and unfollow me if I've damaged your precious retinas by not talking about butterflies and flowers and puppies.  Being injured sucks, it is completely awful and I'd go into more detail but thankfully Morgan already did the work of writing it for me so go read her post on injury.  I'm having the second kind of day, in case you couldn't tell.


And I swear, I swear to God, if anyone comments on this post and says anything like, "You got to run a mile, that's something!" or "better luck next time!" I will reach through the computer screen and break all your little typing fingers, I will find a way and my puppies will help me do it.  

19 comments:

  1. SHITDAMNMOTHAFUCKAFUCKSHITDAMN! Bastard injuries.

    You WILL be back. But it sucks that it isn't today.

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  2. Vodka in aisle 8 please, vodka in aisle 8!!!

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  3. UGH, Injuries are just the worst. They send me into a potty mouth, world hating depression. You can do this!!! It will get better!

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  4. Ugh! That is so frustrating. What the hell, universe??????

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  5. A while back, you wrote:

    " Even if I have to drag myself through 13.1 miles using only my front teeth, even if it wrecks the rest of my year of racing, even if I have to have my right leg amputated at the sacrum, so help me, I will not DNS this half marathon. Not this time."

    And you didn't DNS. In fact you finished. And now it's about 2 weeks later, and you tried to run a mile and it hurt. And yes it sucks. And it really sucks.

    But wouldn't you have made the same choice anyway? And wasn't it the right one for you? If you had to go back, would you make the same choice? If so, then that's that. And I think you're still triumphant.

    [sorry, I really suck at posting what people want to hear. You are absolutely within your rights to slap me the next time you see me]

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  6. Hey, at least you got to run a mile! Better luck next time!!










    Just kidding. Yea, that is not fair at all. I totally understand your not wanting to hear the fluffy stuff people love to say. When I found out Ramsey was going to be born with a cleft, so many people told me that it could be worse and that I was lucky it was only a cleft, and I wanted to bitch-slap all those people. Those things don't make people feel better when they're really hurting. Sometimes it's right to recognize that something SUCKS instead telling someone things will get better or that it could be worse or that they're lucky to have what they have.

    Haha, anyway, that SUCKS!!!

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  7. I feel ya. When I first started my run yesterday my leg hurt per usual. After 20 min of walking in beautiful running weather I said, F this...and decided to run but to change my running form (to the "correct" form, not my default)...and my leg felt better. Really, no doctor could have just looked at my form...

    perhaps you should just start skipping...that was my third option

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  8. You deserve to say fuck at the top of your lungs! So sorry.

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  9. Unfollow? Hell... this post should earn you a few stalkers. Fuck injuries.

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  10. Butts are stupid. That is all.

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  11. Poop. That's how I feel about that.

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  12. Ugh - I'm sorry! Being injured fucking sucks!

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  13. The. Worst. Nothing sucks more than being sidelined. Nothing. Fuck this motherfucking shit.

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  14. Emmer Effer, I didn't see this on Friday and was wondering why you weren't running! Boo!

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